Luneta Day
Yup, you read it right, Luneta day. CFC anniversary kasi kaya nagpunta kami with my yfc bros tas humabol yung ibang sis. Andun din si mahal na Ina. haha. Elibs naman ako dun sa batang nag lead ng worship. astig. cool dude. yuck ang korni na.
Grabe kanina lang ulit ako nakaluwas ng Maynila (ops. promdi talaga. {kanta}mahal kong maynila, ika'y hindi magsasawa... tama ba yung lyrics?) hehe. Ang sarap magpa-picture at mag-picture. Kung may camera lang ako,hay naku walang kawala sakin ang Maynila, eh buti yung isa kong kasama magdo-docu may dalang digicam eh di naki pic na rin ako. haha. Kaso siyempre iba pa rin yun kukuhanan mu yung mga bagay na interasado ka. Gaya ko, gusto ko pumicture sa kalsada, picturan ang estatwa ni Rizal dapat may guard para astig, at siyempre ang mga gusali at magagandang spot sa Luneta kabilang na'ko dun. Haha, parte daw talaga ko ng Luneta?! ang kulit. Eh ayun na nga andami rin tao. Wala lang gusto ko lang sabihing madaming tao. Haha. Gusto mo ikaw rin sabihin mo, o game ah one, two, go... "eh ayun nga andaming tao." Very Good! Haha.
Ayun, haggard kasi sobrang init the whole day pera na lang nung bandang hapon after mass umulan. Huwaw, ang sakit naman sa ulo nun. Pero ayos lang masaya. Haii naku can't believe na one year na lang ako sa YFC. Hehe. I so love the whole community. Anyways, super pasaway naman ako, pati tuloy members nahahawa.
Share ko lang din (kung ayaw mong basahin eh di huwag...haha), ang astig din kagabi kasi narealize ko HINDI ako NAG-IISA sa mundo na may same prob. Actually kahit sa text lang kami nagkausap sobrang na-touch ako sa story niya, at dahil dun gusto ko siyang i-hug. awww. (ops, hindi aso yun na umungol, yun yung sa text kapag ka na-touch ka sasabihin sa'yo ... awww - pwede ring i-read as oooohw...bahala ka na kung panu mu siya ii-interpret).
At yun na nga balik sa Luneta, kawindang yung bata kanina nagpupulot siya ng bote tas nung makita niya yung cup ng noodles bigla ba namang hinataw hanggang sa matapon at bumalibag yung lalagyan, eh may laman pa naman, nagkalat pa siya. Hay kaya mga magulang : turuan ng tamang asal ang mga anak. Pwedeng anak mo o kaya kung ayaw mo naman eh di yung anak ng kapitbahay mo o ng crush mo (yikee nanay/tatay na nga may crush pa, chismakaroo), anu ba naman yung isang bata ang natuto ng magandang asal kapamilya man o kapuso. nyah anjologs. haha.
Speaking of kapamilya, bakit kaya natanggal si Nel kagabi sa Big Brother house. Haii ano ba yan, hindi ba dapat si Wendy? O kaya si Bruce? O kaya si Bea, Gee-Ann? Pwede rin namang si Mickey at Bodie? Yuck nilahat na. haha. Akala ko pa naman si Nel ang mapapasama sa Big Four. Ngunit ako ay nagkamali. At ang pagkakamaling yun ay di dapat tularan ng iba. Pinagsisihan ko na ang naging desisyon ko. Huhuhu. Andarama? wa ka paks! ganun talaga haha.
Ikaw kwento ka naman?! anu pa't naging tambayan natin to. yess. may plugging factor. hehe.
God Bless pipol of the world! apir, apir, apir!!!!
Facing The Giants
It was a super big week for me last week. It started off
Tuesday (June 5, 2007) when we had our
SOLA2 leaders household. It was like a balik-eskwela household and farewell household to some leaders in our group. It started late around 5pm cause some had school and I had to go find a job. It was a tiring day but seeing these young leaders in our community made me feel better. This young hearts although you know they had their own probs and stuffs do have their hyper energy felt in the house (Tito Mar's). We had a bit of discussion (kinda debate with Alvin on the frontline throwing questions to Girlie (fresh from Summer House Training that time). It was a lively and fun-filled household I may say, almost complete attendance and all is so eager to share and to just have fun. Although I have shared what I was feeling the previous days before household - which was not really good -
God just so affirmed to me that I have to fully trust in Him and surrender everything. Then after we ate our food (care of our couple coordinator...nyahahaha...bitin yung pansit pero nagkasya naman...haha...basta food talaga! haha) we went to Arvin's house (our clusterhead Sam's brother) to watch what I prepared last night. It was a video for the farewell of my partner, and two other leader - which had to transfer on other service in the community to answer God's higher calling. It was a touching part of the household as all of us gave our personal message to the three. We had our household ended by near midnight. hehe. Youth nga naman. What I realized -
it is not the hard things we do that matter it's the joy that comes to it everytime you'll see the people that you know will help you along the way and just inspire do better things because simply put - you love these people.
*****
Thursday (June 7, 2007), service meeting in
Nico's house for the discovery camp and CFC anniversary. We also watched the movie
"Facing the Giants", It was a story of an american football coach, with his team that loses every game they play. He also has a wife who dreams to have a child but the coach seems to have some "reproduction"-thing problem and so it's hard for them to have a child. Their house has that worse smell they can't seem to find where that smell started plus an old car he uses everyday but always had mechanical problems. He was so pressured everyday, going back into the house bad mood. Until he heard he was going to be replaced as the coach of their school's football team. As he face the different problems the players were facing in the school and their homes. One of his good player transfered home and school, one just get angry with his dad, and some fails schoolwork and can't balance between studies and football. All these he experienced in this time of his life, all together when all was so devastating and troubling. Until one day he just woke up, holding a bible and goes outside their house under a tree with sunlight on his face opening the bible and reading a verse about God being our fortress. He just surrender everything to the Lord and trust Him. He says that
whatever happens He will love Jesus with all his heart. After that he went back to their house and plan for their game - all using his bible. One question for his team building was : What's the purpose of their team?. Then he gathers his team and started to talk. The whole team don't take it seriously at first cause they're used to their usual training routine which is just pure playing. The coach just taught them that in whatever they do they must give everything to the Lord, win or lose they praise Him. And that they use their full strength and never give up. Until their game started, they bagan and end their game with a prayer finishing every prayer with the line - win or lose we praise you. The whole worked hard and unified by the Lord as they take their journey towards the national game (which they don't even expected) until they face the Giants (a team with three comsecutive wins). Strong faith, prayers and bonding get them to their unexpected and heart-pumping win. After that all came good - he had received a brand new car from one of his players that he adviced to say sorry to his rich dad, he has inspired his players to just gave their best shot every game and balance their studies with football, he has found where that smelly thing in their house came from, and after two years tehy had two championships and two babies. God just provided him everything he need because he didn't become afraid to surrender everything to the Lord.
He walks on water with no fears. The bible become his weapon empowered by his faith and prayers. Lines I love from this movie:
"If you are not weak and small how will you realize that God is mighty"
"Lord you are my fortress... I trust in You"
"Never give up"
"Win or lose - praise God"
"Nothing is impossible with Christ..."After the service meeting I felt so empowered, I realized things I've been thinking a lot lately - the thing of giving up my service, the question why am I not happy with what I am doing. By then He just made me think again and simply embrace me with His words.
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Saturday - Sunday (June 9-10, 2007) I came to the reatreat of Kasangga East A and B at Taytay, Rizal.The day before this retreat I thought I would never get a chance to attend but then I made a way, I wrote a letter to my nanay, that I need money for the retreat because of the registration. I said to myself that whatever amount she puts in it, may it be small or just enough, I will go. And God just really wants me to go because my nanay left me money (although not enough I can manage).
I'm ashamed to myself for attending this retreat cause I know I have sinned a lot and felt unworthy being one of these great leaders I get by. But I also said to myself that maybe this will also be a great time for me to reflect on some things and I know that i will learn a lot of things especially in serving here in the community.
Talk One: The Calling by Kuya DylanI had been reminded of my becoming a
Youth for Christ. The attitude that a leader should have and the great privilege because I am called by God to simply touch the lives of the youth and
share God's overflowing love to everyone.
Talk Two: First Among Equal by Ate BJWorking out on seven core values of YFC : Passion, Integrity, Endurance, Creativity, Excellence, Empowerment, and Unity and Teamwork. I admit
I am imperfect and everyone is. It just a matter of knowing the goodness in every decision we make and being true to what we believe.
Talk three: Transfiguration by Kuya Jepoy
Finding
true happiness in the midst of hardship - One answer to my question of why am I not happy. And that's why God really wants me to be in this retreat because He planned all this, he has prepared a good answer to my question. We are the youth who embrace the cross and follow Jesus.
Talk Four: Letting Go by Kuya MikeThis was the most touching part of the night. In being a leader and in serving fo God we should not expect an easy and comfortable life, we should not be attached in our personal desires and we should get over our past because this are things that weakens us and become hindrances in true loving and sharing.
Letting go and letting God is just what God wants me to do all this time. The time I have lost will, I have weaken my heart and the time I thought I will give in.
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After the sunday kasangga assembly we went staright to marikina sports complex to practice for prais parade this coming June 24 at Luneta for the CFC anniversary (haggardness because it's so hot and I didn't got a good rest the night before because late an rin nagpatulog nung retreat). And then SIGA texted we will be having our
Gawad Kalinga build the day after. Wuhoo. I was so excited but then since most of us is tired during the kasangga it is okey to do it some other time. Sunday night, I had mass with my highschool friend, and talk for a while (pero siyempre umuwi muna ko ng bahay para magfreshen-up...haha...kahit super antok and pagod na'ko). After we had our small talk in chowking I went home and go to
Krizel's house together with my new partner and cousing
Onang. I had installed her PC a photoshop and thought her some and we had some minin-bonding in her room. After the night around 11pm we saw
Sarah and invited us in her house. We bonded with her brother
Christian and their bunso BJ (?). We ate a little and update each other on some stories we could share.
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June 11, 2007 - Monday, since pinagpaliban ang GK for YFC sa cluster, we had our upper household kina
Rosean. It was also a farewell and welcome household for new services. It was fun although nakakaiyak dahil sa mga aalis and sa mga messages. We gave
Sam and Girlie letters that we made. Sam taught us so many things along the way and she really knows how to make each one of us special and feel loved, so that we, ourselves can share God's love for us to our members. I also been reaffirmed that
we had each other and God when we feel weak and helpless.
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Now I am making everything clear with myself. Slowly, I know I can manage things I've been so worried about because I believe that God is enough. I may not be blessed with all my needs but I know that He has plans and purpose in all that is happening with me right now.
And in time, as I face all the giants on my journey here on earth, with God on my side, heaven will be reached and true happiness will come without searching and just believing. Heart Of Worship
when the music fades
all is stripped away
and i simply come
longing just to bring
something that's of worth
that will bless your heart
*** i bring you more than a song
for a song in itself
is not what you have required
you search much deeper within
through the way things appearyou're looking into my heart
chorus
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and it's all about you
It's all about you, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing i've made it
when it's all about youit's all about you, Jesus
King of endless worth
no one could express
how much you deserve
though i'm weak and poor
all i have is yours
every single breath
*** and chorus
*I bring you more than a song ...
you’re looking into my heart looking into my heart …
I bring you more than a song ...
Labels: facing-the-giants
by jcsm
For now, I will not write about his story but their story - lovesong story. Hmm let us see how this will go. Sana makaya ng powers natin ang istorya nila in songs. haha.
"I was alone thinking I was just fine
I wasn’t looking for anyone to be mine
I thought that love was just a fabrication
A train that wouldn’t stop at my station
Home, alone, that was my consignment
Solitary confinement
So when we met I was getting around you
I didn’t know I was looking for love until I found you ..."
[i didn't know i was looking for love by sitti]
Okey kamustahin muna natin si girl? hmmm (a) loner, (b) takot umibig, (c) busy sa buhay buhay o (d) epal lang talaga? well not until she finds this man. Sabihin na lang natin they met somewhere in time nung bagets pa sila. At eto naman si lalaki kakatapos lang ng matinding break up noon. Mejo kasi may pagka play boy. Andalas tuloy iwan. Eto naman ang drama ni mister chick boy:
"It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed ... "
[you first believed by hoku]
'Yun yun eh, malalalim naman pala si lalaki eh. Kelangan lang niya ng someone na iintindi sa kaniya, yung tipong masusungkit ang kaibuturan ng kaniyang puso. hala. Panu kaya yun?!
"You make my dreams,
Come true over and over again.
And I honestly, truly believe,
You and me are written in the stars
And in my whole life through,
Just giving thanks to you.
Cause your eyes are the windows to heaven.
Your smile could heal a million souls.
Your love completes my existence.
You're the other half that Makes Me Whole.
You're the only other half that Makes Me Whole ..."
[make me whole - amel larrieux]
May ganung drama talaga? nakatadhana kuno Written in the stars daw. wushoo, ang lupit. Destiny?! haha. Hmm... siyempre ang sabi ni boy sa girl "you complete me.." ops parang movie lang. haha.
"Di kita pipilitin
Sundin mo pang iyong damdamin
Hayaan nalang tumibok ang puso mo
Para sa akin
Kung ako ay mamalasin
At mayron ka nang ibang mahal
Ngunit patuloy ang aking pagibig
Magpakailanman..." [para sa akin by sitti]
Aii talagang gumaganon. Mahal ka na oh, anu pa?! kilos na go, go, go! patweetums pa kasi si girlalu. haii.
"Oooh I... wanna give you all my love
I wanna show you everything that my hearts made ofheaven sent from above
oh I.. wanna make your wish comebaby there is anything I'll do,
I'll do for youso I give to you... all my love.. all my love ..." [all my love by inner voices]
Yihee, kinikilig. haha. totoo nga ba yun? Eh siyempre in love na si girl kaya sagot na agad. sila na?! yup yup yup. Pero ano 'tong mga naririnig ko sa paligid. hala...
"Your friends are sorry for me
They watch you pretend to adore me
But I'm no fool to this game
Now here comes your secret lover
She'd be unlike any other
Until your guilt goes up in flames..." [my favorite mistake by sheryl crow]
Huli ka boy. tsk tsk tsk. Sino si third party? aiian galit ang lola mo.
"And keep talking that mess,
thats fineCould you walk and talk, at the same time?
And its my name that’s on that jag
So go move your bags, let me call you a cab
Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted ..." [irreplaceable by beyonce]
Nagaaway na.. hala...
"in the closet thats your stuff
but trick i brought it so bitch dont touch
you talk alot of bullshit allright
but while you walk and talkimma get mine now
it my name thats on your lass
you bald-headed rat trying to get rid of that..
back up out my face broad im really not trying to talk to you
talking about im never gonna find a girl like you
you must got me fucked up..." [irreplaceable male version by bboy truth]
Ops, sinagot daw talaga. 'Wag iinit ang ulo. tsk tsk tsk. kinabukasan...
"Im so sorry that I tore your heart apart last night(And Im sorry)
And Im sorry if I scarred you again today (I didntmean to take your dreams)
I didnt mean to take your dreams (Mmm)
and make them seem so trite (I sincerely)
I sincerely (Oh), completely (Yeah) apologize fordoin what I did..." [i'm sorry]
Magsosorry din naman pala eh... sus... natutunan na siguro niyang mahalin talaga. eeeh. anu bah.
"Wag mong isipin na hindi kana mahal
Sarili ko`y hahanapin ko lang
At ang panahon at ang oras ng aking pagkawala
Ay para rin sa ating dalawa
Wag ka sanang lumuha
Sana`y intindihin
Ito ang dapat nating gawin
Upang magkakilala pa
At malaman kung tayo
Ay para sa isa`t isa..." [cool off by yeng constantino]
At dahil sa mga nangyayari sa kapaligiran yan, at cool off daw muna sabi ni girl. Nyeh, bakit 'di pa break up?! di rin naman tinanggap yung sorry. hala. nakanaman yan.
"Since you've been gone I've been lonely
Longing to be with you only
Maybe there's still is a way I could find you and say.. just how I feel
I can't believe that it's over
Wished somehow I could have showed her
All that was inside my heart 'stead of playing the games
You might have stayed..." [oh well by boyziimen]
Nagsosorry na nga kasi before eh. Oh well kung trip mong magpaka-lonely sige't magpataasan ng pride. sige ka. pero ano tong may hinanakit na dinarama pa rin si girl at si boy.
"I thought my life was over without you
Thought I would be oh so sad darling
'Cuz you left me here, to face all my fears
All by myself, with nobody else
Now that you're gone I just gotta move on
But my lovin's never changed
It'll always stay the same
I felt you were wrong
The lonely nights are long
I get weak then I'm strong
It gets easier" [easier by kandi with faith evans]
Hmmmm. Tapos ngayon ganiyan ang drama, feeling lonely. At talagang moving on kuno. Aiian, they both wait pathetically to each other, di naman maka let go.
"I try to run from your side
But each place I hide
only reminds me of you
When i turn out all the lights
Even the night
only reminds me of you..." [only reminds me of you by st.paul]
Asus mahal pa naman kasi eh. Kung anu ano pa ginagawa para lang makalimot.
"I'm not a saint
I'm just a man
Who had heaven and Earth In the palm of his hand
but I threw it away
So now I stand here today asking forgiveness and if you could just please
Give me another chance to write you another song
And take back those thing's I've done
Cause I'll give you my heart
If you would let me start all over Again..." [another song - all over again by justin timberlake]
After ilang weeks...sorry na daw ulit sabi ni chikboy. kung pwede kayo na daw ulit? haii. dalawang isip pa ba? thsss. Hala si girl ang ngiti andito na oh, ayan oh nafifeel ko. haha.
"Oh, yesterday I was feeling safe
All I do today is trying to be brave
And no melody can seem to soothe my mind
And now I curse you for being so sweet and so kind..." [tattoed on my mind ]
Yikee. balikan blues.
"When she cries, at night, and she doesn't think that I can hear her.She tries, to hide, all the fear she feels inside.So I pray, this time, I can be the man that she deserves.'Coz I die a little each time,When she cries..." [when she cries by restless heart]
Awww. ang sweet. second chance?! at yun nga ang nangyari. dinaan sa harana si girl. haha. Ops... nilalanggam ata ako. Nyeh.
"Hey look at the sun it’s finally shining on my life
It’s shining on my lifeAnd it’s all because of you
It’s finally shining on my lifeFor me and for you..." [hey look at the sun by sitti]
Happy ending din naman pala. Pero wait di ko naman makita yung sun, i get blind, borrow ng shades?! haii korni... parang love.
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