horoscope
whoa and i suddenly hooked up with this stuff - fortune telling. haha. not so. i'd had my hand palm read last friday. now i had read my msn horoscope. and some points are relatively true.
my birthday- november 09, 1986
February 2007
You are all fired up in the Month of the Tiger. Everything, positive and negative, can seem more extreme. If you are an especially emotional or impulsive type, be sure to ask for advice, and spend time with calmer and more practical friends. Find ways to channel your abundant natural energy. Sports, sexual play, and hard physical work are all recommended. There is a potential for conflicts and misunderstandings if you are too aggressive or move too quickly. Travel, starting a new friendship, or anything that allows you to expand your horizons is highly favored this month. Focus on health and beauty treatments, especially near the New Moon midmonth. A change of look can bring positive feedback and have you feeling more confident. If you focus at least once at day on reasons you feel gratitude, you will find you can move to a new level of maturity. Peace of mind comes from within.
for February 25, 2007
julius, today you may feel like you're in charge of a work committee, and after you see the poor results of a certain project, you'll say to yourself 'Ok, if it's going to be like this, we are going to go about things differently.' If you were a football coach, you would probably be trying to come up with a new strategy to motivate your players. Keep looking, you'll find it!
strangers
a quick news first from the author- it was friday last night and i have watched my fave band up dharma down ( i just so love their song "oo" ) during the awards night as part of the ust architecture week 2007. yeba. it was fun although my feet is aching and i felt so haggard because of a project (undone because they didn't allow us for an interview... ergh) earlier that day.
and also because of this event i have thought of something to blog about.
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it's about me and some strangers. complete strangers.
have you ever felt something different or weird with a stranger before?
i don't know how to explain it but something in their eyes you would feel like it wanted to tell you something. well maybe i also made an impression for them to look like they wanted to say something through their eyes. but it just felt so weird when suddenly after a long time you'll walk by somewhere and you'd pass by that same stranger you've once seen. you've once felt the connection with. and there again will have that meaningful look. but then there's something (again) that pulls you not to say your thoughts loud, for some good things are left unspoken. well yeah, probably.
i was just thinking, what if i acquainted that person? would i be welcome for that stranger? would you be welcome for a stranger?
sometimes with so much stories in our head, we would make up stories for these people. funny sometimes we feel we've known their lives for what they look like or what we feel they're feeling. hah.
and sometimes this strangers, the before blank faces you pass through once in a month or even once in a quarter would make you feel like their becoming part of your life, intentionally or not. they've become the faces you made up stories with. the un-named people who have touched you in some unexpected and little ways. these people you feel like missing when you've not seen them in the place where your path have crossed before.
are you ready to be a stranger for a stranger?
on love
"... because when we love, we always strive to become better than we are." - the alchemistI don't know why I should be blogging this topic but since it's the season of love, maybe I should be reflecting on my views about l-o-v-e.
As I see it, people are living their life to fulfill their dreams. They pursue to reach the feeling of happiness. And the root of this all is love.
LOVE for themselves, for their family, for their friends, for their special someone and for our Creator. The love which causes the things people do to get what they need or with others - to get what they want.
Well honestly, I never had the love most people define love as is. But I believe I have felt love the way the Lord wanted me to feel it. I don't want to be hypocrite if I say I didn't want to feel the love people think love is, the love you feel for your special someone. But for now, I see love differently, thank God I learned something from the past. Hopefully my principles won't get me wrong someday. I see love not just as something you express for the person you think you like where you feel your heart beat faster everytime he/she's around, but love is something you share with everyone. Everyone who you think needs the attention, the care and the comfort. It is something that makes me feel good and better, happy indeed. Well maybe you would say it's
not love but charity. But that's the essence, everything you do, as I wrote earlier, is because of love - may it be love for your self, for
ANYONE or for
someTHINGS.
This is my view of love just for now - it may change, it may not. But one thing is for sure , I am happy with the love I am feeling right now. The love from the people who truly cares for me. The love I am sharing through Him. And if I, in time, would be able to feel a different kind of happiness that is - different definition of love, I hope it helps me become a better person.
SUPER SALAMAT
Finally after all the
sleepless nights, crying moments, head aches answering questions and thinking of design solutions, accepting hurtful comments, thinking of finances and still fighting kahit na super maximum aberya na ang nangyari, eto na, tapos na rin ang thesis ko. wuhooo!!!! mga minor subjects na lang at ilang projects to do.
Teka, gusto ko muna magkwento sa mga nagyari sakin for the past two months na hindi ako nagpost dito. haha. meaning for the last two months
i've been cramming my deadlines (first endorsement,second endorsement,final endorsement,bunutan then defense) whoa, that was really stressful. haha.
okey
first sem natapos ko yung book, nakasurvive kahit kulang kulang, pinagalitan ng prof for my impossible proposal and some issues na ako ang nagpasimula. then by october it's over.
sembreak wala akong ginawa kung hindi magpahinga. then start of all the paghihirap, the real thesis presentation....
first endorsement(complete schemes-floorplans,site dev't,elevations and sections,perspectives): second week ng december. first crying moment. why? the consequence if you're not endorsed in december is that you'll fail or
you drop. ang nangyari sakin? the night before ng first endorsement puro plan on site palang nagagawa ko, i didn't have elevations and sections. sobrang hinapit ang perspective. sumapit ang umaga, wala akong sleep and i'm late sa class but
still i pass what i've done kahit incomplete. kinabahan ng ilang days cause i know my chances of getting endorsed is very low ( i mean
70% not endorsed and 30% go on to second round). But God really won't like me to give up the fight yet, He gave me a chance. and so my adviser get me endorsed on the first round.
second endorsement(adviser) and final endorsement(thesis committee);(complete final presentation drawings 100% with book)february 3 2007. a week before this february 3, i am so worried i haven't finished my plans yet, pinoproblema ko pa kung sino ang magka-cadd ng drawings since wala na talagang time if i am going to encode it myself.
sabi ko sa sarili ko sobrang labo na na makahabol ako for the feb3 deadline. alam to ng mga friends and blockmates ko.
i told them many times even my parents na baka hindi ako makapag defense this sem... then i asked my friend if she knows anyone who could encode my drawings for a week, and so i came up with this freelance architect who helped me do the encoding, of course business is business and so a lot of money was involved. a night before the endorsement, february 2, by 7pm mga 90% pa lang tapos and andami pang mali pero wala na kaming choice dahil magsasarado na ang joli's(official printing station ng thomasian arki ahaha) kaya hinabol namin ang closing which is 8pm...
dito na magsisimula ang mga aberya at kalbaryo.
by 8pm mga pang 4 nako sa pila and i'm expecting by 1am ng madaling araw tapos ng iprint yung akin..but no 2:30am tsaka pa lang ako nagstart magprint, why? imagine how big those boards to be printed, the editing of students while they're usb and cds are on the computer. i tell you sumakit paa ko kakatayo at kakahintay sa pila. ang masaklap pa dun 8am ang endorsement namin sa adviser. so walang tulugan. i planned to sleep sa school since katabi ng joli's eh UST na. maglalakad na lang ako sa espana. haha. natapos akong magprint at magmount sa board ng drawings by 4am..
imagine pumila ka ng puyat from 8pm-4am.... hindi na natuloy ang planong di na'ko uuwi since 4 hours na lang endorsement ko na. what i did is pinaiwan ko sa joli's yung boards ko (ayokong pahirapan sarili ko na magbuhat ng 12 boards of 30x40) then umuwi ako para magpalit ng uniform dahil klangan naalala ko naka civilian pala ako nung araw na'yon. pero pag-uwi ko ng bahay nakaidlip ako. at sobrang napasarap ako ng tulog 8:30am ako nagising. napamura ako the moment i get up and didn't knoe the first thing to do. i am 30 mins late if i travel to UST i'll be one hour more late.. so i picked up my phone and call my adviser, he didn't answer and so i call my classmate and asked for help. sabi ko my boards are in joli's and kung papayag si sir siya na yung magpacheck then hahabol na lang ako. as soon as i stepped in front of beato(our school building) my classmate have my boards and told me that
i passed the second endorsement, without me having it checked (weird?haha.)
then i waited for the final endorsement, which is happening 1pm that same date. i ate with some of my friends. then before the final endorsement, kinakabahan ako dahil mali ang structural drawings ko, and i so panicked nung nasa loob na kami ng avr, ni pencil ko na lang yung ibang lines para magmukang tama kahit na mali. haha. buti na lang nakalusot. wuhoo. nakahinga ko ng maluwag.
susunod na malupit na hagupit ng kapalaran? 6pm that same day also ay bunutan kung anong araw ako magdedefend(defense week is feb5-15). todo wish ako na sana four to six days after the first defense ang mabunot ko para sana mare-print ko pa yung mga mali. pero sadyang malupit ang kapalaran.
i don't know if God is sending a message na itigil ko na dahil mali mali din naman yung drawings ko or he's just pushing me to the maximum limt, bakit kamo, nabunot ko number 4, meaning sunday lang ang pahinga ko tas defense agad.
after i picked that number i rushed in to my house to do yung mga kulang pa sa book and masagot yung mga possible na itanong sakin ng juries.pero nakatulog ako. and
impossible talagang matapos dahil super dami pa. and so i get the
help of my classmates. and super thankful ako dahil may mga nagrespond dun sa text ko for help.
sumunod na pagsubok. natapos ko yung book 2:30pm ng sunday. problem?
san ako magpapaprint ng sunday at magpapa- book bind ng rush since knabukasan ang call time ay 7:30am with complete requirements.
i asked the Lord again if i should go or give up na. pero hindi ako sumuko. makulit ako eh. haha. pumunta akong Philcoa to edit my boards, reprint boards and print the whole. pero sadyang ayaw paawat ng aberya. pagdating ng philcoa, umakyat ako sa taas nagpaprint pero nasira yung printer aftr 3 pages pa lang. bumaba ako and pinasaksak ko yung USB sa nagpiprint. tangacious talaga, dahil pagsaksak ng usb
biglang nawala yung mga files. anong feeling ko? katapusan na ng mundo, gusto kong murahin lahat ng tao sa paligid ko, maghandusay at magpakamatay. pero hindi ako sumuko, dumating yung mga tutuliong saki. i just prayed na sana kahit hindi naka book bind eh tanggapin ng jury.
umuwi ako sa bahay with 4(
yhug,jaimee,ruyzl and jeijei) of my blockmates and yung isang freelance to help me. dito na lang ako sa house nagprint ng book i just bought colored and bw ink na muntikan pang kapusin, buti na lang same kami ng printer ng pinsan at my extra pa kong ink kaya umabot. at anu ano ang nangyari sa lamayan ng drawing presentations?
ngarag ngarag lang naman kami sa dami ng kelangan tapusin at baguhin. (haha meron pang uminit ng ulo sa nag-encode ng gawa ko dahil di nasunod yung ibang drawings, pero okey naman na siya.haha) ayun siyempre kung ako lang gumagawa dun nagpakamatay na siguro ako. pero ang galing lang talaga
gumawa ng move si Lord dahil hinayaan niyang tulungan ako ng mga taong ito. time check: five hours before the 7:30am calltime ng mga magdedefense nalaman naming kulang pala ako ngdalawang drawings, meaning hindi na reprint. and so ang plan bago ako magdefense may tatakbo sa joli's para magreprint habang hinihintay ko sila sa waiting area. pero ang pinakamatindi sa lahat....
7am... di pa tapos magprint ng drawings for book and executive summary...
naghang yung computer.... at yung printer... imagine yung face ko di maipinta. suiper worried.
i keep asking everyone sa paligid ko kung tutuloy ko pa ba,. since andaming na talagang aberya. i keep asking God kung eto na bayung last sign na wag nakong tumuloy. but no i remember someone told me.
"para lang yan lumalaban sa giyera... kung alam mong mamatay ka na susuko ka pa ba? o ipagpapatuloy mo yung sinimulang laban?" i sticks toi my head. and so i fight.
7:30am natapos magprint. nagtaxi nalang kami papuntang school. traffic pa sa commonwealth kasi monday. dumating ako ng school 8:30 umakyat ako ng
stairs from ground floor to eight floor..tumatakbo...sumalubong sa kin yung isang prof
..."kala ko di ka na aabot eh...oh ikaw na sunod dito...(pointing to room A)" wuhoo nakaabot ako. pero ang problema? di ko pa narerehearse yung speech ko and yung mga possible questions di ko man lang naaral... bago ako magdefend, nadehydrate ako, and so nagpabili pako ng tubig, buti umabot din yung pina-reprint kong board... sabi ko bahala na...on the spot ang dating...
then mga 10am ako na... pagpasok ko inayos ko yung boards, nag rehearse ng konti before pumasok ang tatlong juries (architect professors),
i delivered my on the spot presentation of thesis/proposal... then came the question and answr portion. sobrang ginisa ako ng mga juries. andami kong hindi na-justify na spaces, na details,,,, then it ended. I went out of the room and waited for more than 5 minutes (which seems to feel like a century) to know the results of my defense. as soon as i entered back to the defense room sobrang knakabahan ako, pero nung bibitawan yung mga salitang..."okey, you passed"... i nearly cried for joy.
PRAISE GOD! nasabi ko na lang.. salamat... slamat sa lahat lahat Lord...
imagine all the things that i went through... all has paid off. super sarap ng feeling. and nakakataba ng pusong
may mga taong handang tumulong at sumuporta. may mga taong
nagdadasal at nagtitiwala. may mga taong
mapapasaya ka sa gitna ng kangaragan at mabibigyan ka ng pag-asa. super salamat.basta patuloy lang ang paglaban. dahil alam kong kasama ko ang Maykapal. kasama natin.
may binigay na letter sakin nanay ko before ng first endorsement and i want to share it to everyone.
one line from there is an inspiration from the bible:
" I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13
