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SUPER SALAMAT

Finally after all the sleepless nights, crying moments, head aches answering questions and thinking of design solutions, accepting hurtful comments, thinking of finances and still fighting kahit na super maximum aberya na ang nangyari, eto na, tapos na rin ang thesis ko. wuhooo!!!! mga minor subjects na lang at ilang projects to do.

Teka, gusto ko muna magkwento sa mga nagyari sakin for the past two months na hindi ako nagpost dito. haha. meaning for the last two months i've been cramming my deadlines (first endorsement,second endorsement,final endorsement,bunutan then defense) whoa, that was really stressful. haha.

okey first sem natapos ko yung book, nakasurvive kahit kulang kulang, pinagalitan ng prof for my impossible proposal and some issues na ako ang nagpasimula. then by october it's over. sembreak wala akong ginawa kung hindi magpahinga. then start of all the paghihirap, the real thesis presentation....

first endorsement(complete schemes-floorplans,site dev't,elevations and sections,perspectives): second week ng december. first crying moment. why? the consequence if you're not endorsed in december is that you'll fail or you drop. ang nangyari sakin? the night before ng first endorsement puro plan on site palang nagagawa ko, i didn't have elevations and sections. sobrang hinapit ang perspective. sumapit ang umaga, wala akong sleep and i'm late sa class but still i pass what i've done kahit incomplete. kinabahan ng ilang days cause i know my chances of getting endorsed is very low ( i mean 70% not endorsed and 30% go on to second round). But God really won't like me to give up the fight yet, He gave me a chance. and so my adviser get me endorsed on the first round.

second endorsement(adviser) and final endorsement(thesis committee);(complete final presentation drawings 100% with book)february 3 2007. a week before this february 3, i am so worried i haven't finished my plans yet, pinoproblema ko pa kung sino ang magka-cadd ng drawings since wala na talagang time if i am going to encode it myself. sabi ko sa sarili ko sobrang labo na na makahabol ako for the feb3 deadline. alam to ng mga friends and blockmates ko. i told them many times even my parents na baka hindi ako makapag defense this sem... then i asked my friend if she knows anyone who could encode my drawings for a week, and so i came up with this freelance architect who helped me do the encoding, of course business is business and so a lot of money was involved. a night before the endorsement, february 2, by 7pm mga 90% pa lang tapos and andami pang mali pero wala na kaming choice dahil magsasarado na ang joli's(official printing station ng thomasian arki ahaha) kaya hinabol namin ang closing which is 8pm...

dito na magsisimula ang mga aberya at kalbaryo.

by 8pm mga pang 4 nako sa pila and i'm expecting by 1am ng madaling araw tapos ng iprint yung akin..but no 2:30am tsaka pa lang ako nagstart magprint, why? imagine how big those boards to be printed, the editing of students while they're usb and cds are on the computer. i tell you sumakit paa ko kakatayo at kakahintay sa pila. ang masaklap pa dun 8am ang endorsement namin sa adviser. so walang tulugan. i planned to sleep sa school since katabi ng joli's eh UST na. maglalakad na lang ako sa espana. haha. natapos akong magprint at magmount sa board ng drawings by 4am..imagine pumila ka ng puyat from 8pm-4am.... hindi na natuloy ang planong di na'ko uuwi since 4 hours na lang endorsement ko na. what i did is pinaiwan ko sa joli's yung boards ko (ayokong pahirapan sarili ko na magbuhat ng 12 boards of 30x40) then umuwi ako para magpalit ng uniform dahil klangan naalala ko naka civilian pala ako nung araw na'yon. pero pag-uwi ko ng bahay nakaidlip ako. at sobrang napasarap ako ng tulog 8:30am ako nagising. napamura ako the moment i get up and didn't knoe the first thing to do. i am 30 mins late if i travel to UST i'll be one hour more late.. so i picked up my phone and call my adviser, he didn't answer and so i call my classmate and asked for help. sabi ko my boards are in joli's and kung papayag si sir siya na yung magpacheck then hahabol na lang ako. as soon as i stepped in front of beato(our school building) my classmate have my boards and told me that i passed the second endorsement, without me having it checked (weird?haha.)

then i waited for the final endorsement, which is happening 1pm that same date. i ate with some of my friends. then before the final endorsement, kinakabahan ako dahil mali ang structural drawings ko, and i so panicked nung nasa loob na kami ng avr, ni pencil ko na lang yung ibang lines para magmukang tama kahit na mali. haha. buti na lang nakalusot. wuhoo. nakahinga ko ng maluwag.

susunod na malupit na hagupit ng kapalaran? 6pm that same day also ay bunutan kung anong araw ako magdedefend(defense week is feb5-15). todo wish ako na sana four to six days after the first defense ang mabunot ko para sana mare-print ko pa yung mga mali. pero sadyang malupit ang kapalaran. i don't know if God is sending a message na itigil ko na dahil mali mali din naman yung drawings ko or he's just pushing me to the maximum limt, bakit kamo, nabunot ko number 4, meaning sunday lang ang pahinga ko tas defense agad. after i picked that number i rushed in to my house to do yung mga kulang pa sa book and masagot yung mga possible na itanong sakin ng juries.pero nakatulog ako. and impossible talagang matapos dahil super dami pa. and so i get the help of my classmates. and super thankful ako dahil may mga nagrespond dun sa text ko for help.

sumunod na pagsubok. natapos ko yung book 2:30pm ng sunday. problem? san ako magpapaprint ng sunday at magpapa- book bind ng rush since knabukasan ang call time ay 7:30am with complete requirements. i asked the Lord again if i should go or give up na. pero hindi ako sumuko. makulit ako eh. haha. pumunta akong Philcoa to edit my boards, reprint boards and print the whole. pero sadyang ayaw paawat ng aberya. pagdating ng philcoa, umakyat ako sa taas nagpaprint pero nasira yung printer aftr 3 pages pa lang. bumaba ako and pinasaksak ko yung USB sa nagpiprint. tangacious talaga, dahil pagsaksak ng usb biglang nawala yung mga files. anong feeling ko? katapusan na ng mundo, gusto kong murahin lahat ng tao sa paligid ko, maghandusay at magpakamatay. pero hindi ako sumuko, dumating yung mga tutuliong saki. i just prayed na sana kahit hindi naka book bind eh tanggapin ng jury.

umuwi ako sa bahay with 4(yhug,jaimee,ruyzl and jeijei) of my blockmates and yung isang freelance to help me. dito na lang ako sa house nagprint ng book i just bought colored and bw ink na muntikan pang kapusin, buti na lang same kami ng printer ng pinsan at my extra pa kong ink kaya umabot. at anu ano ang nangyari sa lamayan ng drawing presentations? ngarag ngarag lang naman kami sa dami ng kelangan tapusin at baguhin. (haha meron pang uminit ng ulo sa nag-encode ng gawa ko dahil di nasunod yung ibang drawings, pero okey naman na siya.haha) ayun siyempre kung ako lang gumagawa dun nagpakamatay na siguro ako. pero ang galing lang talaga gumawa ng move si Lord dahil hinayaan niyang tulungan ako ng mga taong ito.

time check: five hours before the 7:30am calltime ng mga magdedefense nalaman naming kulang pala ako ngdalawang drawings, meaning hindi na reprint. and so ang plan bago ako magdefense may tatakbo sa joli's para magreprint habang hinihintay ko sila sa waiting area. pero ang pinakamatindi sa lahat....

7am... di pa tapos magprint ng drawings for book and executive summary... naghang yung computer.... at yung printer... imagine yung face ko di maipinta. suiper worried. i keep asking everyone sa paligid ko kung tutuloy ko pa ba,. since andaming na talagang aberya. i keep asking God kung eto na bayung last sign na wag nakong tumuloy. but no i remember someone told me. "para lang yan lumalaban sa giyera... kung alam mong mamatay ka na susuko ka pa ba? o ipagpapatuloy mo yung sinimulang laban?" i sticks toi my head. and so i fight.

7:30am natapos magprint. nagtaxi nalang kami papuntang school. traffic pa sa commonwealth kasi monday. dumating ako ng school 8:30 umakyat ako ng stairs from ground floor to eight floor..tumatakbo...sumalubong sa kin yung isang prof..."kala ko di ka na aabot eh...oh ikaw na sunod dito...(pointing to room A)" wuhoo nakaabot ako. pero ang problema? di ko pa narerehearse yung speech ko and yung mga possible questions di ko man lang naaral... bago ako magdefend, nadehydrate ako, and so nagpabili pako ng tubig, buti umabot din yung pina-reprint kong board... sabi ko bahala na...on the spot ang dating...

then mga 10am ako na... pagpasok ko inayos ko yung boards, nag rehearse ng konti before pumasok ang tatlong juries (architect professors), i delivered my on the spot presentation of thesis/proposal... then came the question and answr portion. sobrang ginisa ako ng mga juries. andami kong hindi na-justify na spaces, na details,,,, then it ended. I went out of the room and waited for more than 5 minutes (which seems to feel like a century) to know the results of my defense. as soon as i entered back to the defense room sobrang knakabahan ako, pero nung bibitawan yung mga salitang..."okey, you passed"... i nearly cried for joy. PRAISE GOD! nasabi ko na lang.. salamat... slamat sa lahat lahat Lord...

imagine all the things that i went through... all has paid off. super sarap ng feeling. and nakakataba ng pusong may mga taong handang tumulong at sumuporta. may mga taong nagdadasal at nagtitiwala. may mga taong mapapasaya ka sa gitna ng kangaragan at mabibigyan ka ng pag-asa. super salamat.

basta patuloy lang ang paglaban. dahil alam kong kasama ko ang Maykapal. kasama natin.

may binigay na letter sakin nanay ko before ng first endorsement and i want to share it to everyone.

one line from there is an inspiration from the bible:

" I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13

posted by juliusmarzan @ 11:46 PM