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on being irresponsible

many times i have been so immature with my actions. what i mean is that i usually go on to something without even thinking the consequences of what i just did. i don't know if that's the easiest way venturing new experiences... nah..

i remember when i were in my sophomore college year, we had this optical illusion thing going on inside the class. so we were given this large sheets of like 2-3 pages each and we have to pass it around after we've seen the bigger picture that's hidden in smaller images, you know the usual optical illusion. so there, eh there's only a little time left so i thought it would be easier if we tear a page so that we can easily share and see the image, the other leaf on mine and the other on my seatmate. i didn't know na our professor told pala na we should not tear it, but it's almost torn apart so tinuluyan ko na. then when we get the sheets back to our professor, she got angry because aside from me there's also some students who separated the sheets. eh when she asks who tore it, ako lang nagtaas ng hands. i'd be honest - i really thought it's okey to separate sheets but in the end i admitted na i'm wrong kasi di ako nagtanong sa classmates if it's okey. at least that prof and me is now in good terms since ako lang yung naging honest dun. still the bottom line : think and ask before acting!

and now i also got into trouble with my class. think it's not the right time to share the story but i'd really felt depressed and stupid for what i did. i nearly risk my semester for that. the thing is i learned. and that's where the good part is. you see there are so many decisions in life that we have to make each and every day. may it be little or big decisions we still can't tell the consequences. only God knows. and when it's over it's too late. people are responsible for every single act he/she makes. even if you know you'll not be affected first-hand, in the end it's going to strike back.

plus i also learned this week that old good saying na ' don't trust strangers'. it's true. so because friends and acquaintance kayo you'll trust them?! no. they also become strangers AT times, we also should think twice, nah.... a lot of times to give our trust to them. people not always say the truth. sometimes they're mean, at all cost they'll step on you. they can't keep promises. they don't have a word. And i think it can happen to anyone. i'm not saying that it's evil to not keep promises or to not act what you say, but think that there are still factors that make a decision decisive for an act to be done - which sometime lead to a not so expected circumstances.

so just a little thought from a guy who experienced the gamblings of irresponsibility: think,think,think and act. then whatever the outcome maybe... choose to do the right thing. which also at times is what you believe.

but what if that beliefs are not always right?!

posted by juliusmarzan @ 9:39 AM