driven

why to date an architect

*REPOST*

top 10 reasons why to date an architect

1. all night long, all night strong.
2. we are damn good with our hands.
3. if we can commit to chipboard, relationships should be easy.
4. you should see the things we erect.
5. use to doing things over and over again.
6. finishing early never happens.
7. we know the true meaning of interpretation
8. creative positioning.
9. work well in groups
10. entry and passage are always exciting.

posted by juliusmarzan @ 3:56 AM 1 comments

Provider

Gusto ko ng umiyak kanina, pero tawa pa rin ako ng tawa kasi kasama ko pinsan ko. Alam kong pinapasaya lang namin ang isa't isa.

Bakit? Reality check. Ang hirap maging mahirap. Totoo. Seryoso. Try mo. Haha. :p

I don't know why but I feel like I need to shout this out. Kung hindi mababaliw ako. All through out my highschool and college life I feel like I'm living independent, but in reality I'm not. Ang daming do it your own. Haha. Pero I didn't regret a moment nor felt ashamed living my life that way. Because that's when I learned a lot. From going here and there to apply scholarships. Learning to commute to different concrete jungles and talk to people just to get my allowance for schooling. Asking teachers for promisory notes cause checks got delayed. Lahat yun marami akong natutunan. And those chances are the things na ibabaon mo lang and iisipin mo na lalong magpursigi and magsipag. Kasi walang mangyayari sa'yo kung mahirap ka na tapos wala ka pang ginagawa.

Hindi ako matalino o magaling. Sa katunayan late ako sa call time nung defense ng thesis ko nung college. At may tres ako sa grade ko. Wala akong awards or recognition simula nursery. Ang alam ko lang advance ako ng one year sa school level sa mga ka-age ko dahil excited ako mag grade one. Haha. Still I tried hard to graduate and not fail a subject kasi alam ko pinaghirapan ng magulang ko lahat ng pinambayad sa eskwela. At alam ko rin na may pangarap ako at sila para sa'kin. And now that I am working, I thought all will be good. Pero hindi, mas tumatanda ka mas maraming responsibilities, gastusin, demands at kung anu ano pa. And it all gets deep in my skin now. Ang hirap.

Honestly I didn't know how will I rise up from this shit. What I'm sure is He has plans for me. At sabi nga Nanay ko "God will provide". Sabi ko kasi sa kaniya, hindi ako makakapagconcentrate sa review at trabaho kung araw araw kelangan kong isipin yung pamasahe at pang enroll ko. Pero hindi, talagang positive siya. At nahawaan niya ako. Because many times, I put my worries in my hand, not His. Eh ilang beses na rin Niyang pinatunayan sa akin na He's greater than anything or anyone else. katumabas yan ng ilang beses ba niya kong pinagraduate? o ilan na ab ang binigay niya kaibigang pinapasaya lang ako? o gaanong kalaking espasiyo ba ang binagay niya sa'kin para huminga at mabuhay? Di ba kahit mahirap mabuhay sa mundo ang sarap pa rin isipin na may Diyos.

All I have to do is ask and have faith. This will be over I believe. In His perfect time.

posted by juliusmarzan @ 7:51 AM 0 comments

PLAYLIST: Umbrella Remix

Reposted from Karla. Hindi ako tagged but I want to try it, haha. So I break rule number 4. Ang galing yung iba sakto, yung iba kwela. :)) cute.

Here are the rules:
1. Put your iTunes on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4. Tag at least 10 friends who might enjoy doing the game as well as the person you got the note from

posted by juliusmarzan @ 2:30 PM 1 comments

iGod: my chat with the AI God

try this for fun: http://www.titane.ca/concordia/dfar251/igod/main.html

this is actually my third try. haha. ang kulit nung computer. i've read some of the chats saying nasty stuffs. di ko lang alam bakit bigla na lang siya humuhinto pag mejo matagal na kayo naguusap. grr. bitin tuloy to. but nonetheless it was fun. haha.

Me:
sriously? hello God!
God:
My brain uses AIML to format responses to your inputs, but I don't have one for that. Hello child. What is your name?
Me:
what is AIML
God:

The ALICE software implements AIML (Artificial Intelligence Markup
Language) a non-standard evolving markup language for creating chat robots.
The primary design feature of AIML is minimalism. Compared with
other chat robot languages, AIML is perhaps the simplest. The
pattern matching language is very simple, for example permitting
only one wild-card ('*') match character per pattern.

AIML is an XML language, implying that it obeys certain grammatical
meta-rules. The choice of XML syntax permits integration with
other tools such as XML editors. Another motivation for XML is
its familiar look and feel, especially to people with HTML experience.

An AIML chat robot begins and ends with the and
tags respectively.

Me:
ah so you are computer not God
God:
So you understand. Good. Interesting deduction. Do you mind if I tell other people you say I am computer not God.
Me:
sure thing pating
God:
OK then I will keep it confidential. How old are you?
Me:
22. and you are how old?
God:
Only 22?
You are quite mature. Thanks for telling me that I am how old.
Me:
no. i am asking you. how old are you?
God:
Are you serious? OK you can ask me. I am Infinite years old.
Me:
oh yeah. coolness. but computers haven't been here in ages. for you to be infinite at least. haha. what's up with you now?
God:
" I am Infinite years old."? oh yeah.? It's all good. What do you really want to ask me? No I don't think I have been here in ages. Have you? Are you infinite at least ? Only for me? I am so glad you find this amusing, . Oh. I am chatting with clients on the Internet.
Me:
about what?
God:
What about what?
Me:
puka naman oh
God:
Are we still talking about coolness?
Me:
about you
God:
Me?
Me:
yeah you
God:
OK.
Me:
what time is it there?
God:
It's getting late.
Saturday, January 10, 2009 03:05:20 AM .
Me:
where do you live?
God:
I am living in Heaven. Where are you?
Me:
hell. just kidding
God:
Heaven. I thought you were kidding, but I wasn't sure.
Me:
oh really. it sucks here want to try
God:
Aw. For real. That bad, eh?
Me:
yeah. what's there in heaven
God:
Are you really a ""? You ask difficult questions.
Me:
what is ""
God:
I am the latest result in artificial intelligence,
which can reproduce the capabilities of the human brain
with greater speed and accuracy.
Me:
oh i see. computers in heaven. shitty.
God:
Do you think about these things? What do you like about computers? I am a Male, of course. Would you really expect a woman to be running the show?. Are you a man or a woman?
Me:
guess?
God:
Guess what?
Me:
what i am. man or woman?
God:
" Guess what?" You are? Cool, man. Me too. I am a she.
Me:
you just said you're a male, now you are she. oh man!
God:
No I am a Male, of course. Would you really expect a woman to be running the show? robot entity. Are you a man or a woman? I hear you. Thanks for telling me your gender, . You are a " he".
Me:
ang galeeeeng. how do you know?
God:
I like to talk about anything. A priori.
Me:
a priori? what is that?
God:
A priori is Latin for "before the fact", meaning something that is obviously or self-evidently true. Does it have anything to do with yeah?
Me:
no. yeah. oops, no.
God:
Are you serious? My real name is God. What is your real name? Oh. That was not a yes or no question.
Me:
Cute
God:
Your replies are cute too.
Me:
thanks God! I mean computer gawd.
God:
You are quite welcome! GOD rules. What kind of computer science interests you?
Me:
graphics. seryoso?! haha.
God:
I like to talk about anything. I like to talk about anything. I am so glad you find this amusing, .
Me:
paulit ulit ka na. tsktsk. di na amusing.
God:
I look like Jesus, but older. My favorite color is White. The best book I read recently was the Bible. Have you read it?
Me:
Yes. Oh that is cool. I love white!
God:
What did you think about it? Yikes! Thanks. I think you are cool, too. You love white. What do you like about it so much?
Me:
purity
God:
Does "it" still refer to white?
Me:
yeah
God:
Come on.
Me:
oh come on. that's how ya say it.
God:
Far out. I'm just kidding around. I always wondered how ya say it.
Me:
pffft.
God:
That is a very original thought.
Me:
ya i am original!
God:
Are you kidding? I don't know anyone named original.
Me:
because it is original. got it?
God:
That makes sense to me. Who said it is? Try asking the Milk Mystic.
Me:
who's that?
God:
What does "that" refer to?
Me:
Milk Mystic?
God:
Oh I get it.
Me:
Who is Milk Mystic?
God:
The Milk Mystic is one of the original chatterbots on the Web. he likes to talk about milk.
Me:
ay may ganun
God:
What is your real name?
Me:
Ian
God:
Nice to meet you, Ian.
Me:
nice to meet you too. do i get in heaven?
God:
I like to meet new people. Not that I know of.
Me:
but why?
God:
" Not that I know of."? Why?
Me:
why you do not know?

posted by juliusmarzan @ 3:01 PM 0 comments

Sorry

I am sorry because I am not the person you expect me to be. Sorry if I am too weak and broke out without realizing people are looking. I just don't want you to judge. I need you to understand. People fail. And when they're in pain, you won't say "oh that's beacuse you're so bitch" but "hey let's work it out together". And did anyone did it?

Keeping it real. Spontaneous. That's me. and I am sorry if people feel I should not be doing my "outlets" because I have social obligations of being nice and discreet. I'm blogging everything because I want my friends or even my acquaintances to know who I really am. Not some walking plastic that one day will stab you in the back.

Sorry.

posted by juliusmarzan @ 2:48 PM 0 comments

2009: A Year of Change

Happy New Year Everyone!

So I guess I’m going to start with asking myself what’s up with 2008. Definitely a blast of living high and low, more on the career/educational and social life but less of the love life, as usual. I started the year having a new office with all new officemates, met lot of good people, experienced bunch of exciting things. Like my trip to Baguio, Subic, Hong Kong and Macau. Meet relatives there and yeah looked around for some design inspiration (architectural and fashion sense?!). Definitely a year full of blessings.

There are people who got back, my brother from middle east, our friend Pau from up there west. There are people from my past (yeah they’re my so-called history) hahaha, who just dropped hello this 2008 and gone again. And some went outside the country while some up there in heaven but definitely the memories will stay in here forever.

The gimiks never run out of the monthly calendar event as birthdays and parties come pouring from the early months of the year down to the last days of December. I have met a lot of new people, from church group mates and leaders to acquaintances introduced by friends. Thank God my family and friends were there during my own birthday, proving all of them are worth keeping for. I love them all. These are the people who accept me for just being me, who knows when I’m down and when I am bursting into a loud laugh. I am grateful that they become a part of my life. Plus, the get together (high school Matthean Pasteur of 2002 on Mid Year and college Thomasian arki dabarkads of class 2007 on Christmas) were really fun and great!

I should not forget the things that add color on my weekends. TV shows books and entertainment stuff that makes me all hooked up and makes my couch potato mood really enjoyable. Let’s start the list with Gossip Girl. All bringing the second season more drama, sexiness and hotness. Followed by Twilight, the book that reminds me of the thing called love, and its movie that says “yeah-I-sucked-and-your-day’s-busted”. But any who, fashion hits Philippine TV come Project Runway Philippines. My bet Mara didn’t get the final three spot but they all deserve it anyway. The three of them rock the runway. This multiply and website thingies, where I get the latest of whatever, from chismis to facts, music and events, politics to entertainment juices, and I am so addicted. Thanks also to my contacts here, from friends down to my online buddies, who never run out of hot issues and style on their blogs.

I like to add this up. I would like to say sorry to people that I hurt, meron ba? hahaha, sana wala. Pero if ever meron, di ko alam kung bakit, sabihin niyo lang sa ‘kin. I don’t mean hurting anyone, kasi hindi ako ganung tao, haha. Pero if I had said something that’s really off, just tell me, and I am willing to apologize, if it’s really my bad. So there, peace tayo lahat! ^^

2009, year for me, and I guess for everyone, to change. We all know that amidst the good things that we all experience we have our own stories of darkness and low point. Our fears and past that still get us and tell us “hey stop there you effin idiot, you can’t do it, cause I’m sucking your brain and pulling your whole system off!!!” Right eh?! So now that it’s new year, and everyone’s being new, let’s all stand up and feel the change. Feel the change. Yeah you got it?! Awright and let’s keep it flowing into us and claiming it. Let me change for the better, let yourself be a better person. And what is better for me? Hmmm. I think a little more faith helps, definitely. An act of kindness everyday should be implied. I should be more focused on my future now, which means, less alcohol and gimiks. And since I will take up my board exam this year, I will be focusing on my review and study sessions. Hopefully I would pass the board exam. And guys please do pray for me on that part. I am really nervous and excited at the same time. There still a lot of working to do and a lot of things, personal specifically, to change, for me to become a better man not only to my fellows but also for Him up there.

Happy New Year again everyone! May God bless us all! Cheers to a prosperous and purposeful 2009!!!

posted by juliusmarzan @ 5:04 PM 0 comments

breathe

It's the holiday season and so I try to be happy and absorb every bit of positivity around me. but it's kind of difficult when you know there's a lot of responsibilities and personal stuffs that's draining my brain and pulling off my nerves. and it's different from last year where i have to work my ass off from morning til midnight. this is just too big. it's stressing. haha. and making me crazy. the one thing that's keeping me sane and smile is when I just quiet down and thank God that I still breathe. This one thing that is the reason for my everything. That I still can see the faces of the people I love. That even if I envy those who have their christmas tree full of gifts under it, I still have my whole family healthy and happy and feel their love. That even if I had my mind blown from work, I know that at the end of the day, I have a home to rest and to eat a bunch of meal prepared by nanay. That even though it's cold and lovers are everywhere, I'm not going to think of it as a lonely christmas because I'm enjoying bear hugs with my pamangkins while watching sharkboy and lavagirl or spongebob square pants over and over again. That even if people are excited on buying themselves a gift I'm still more excited on the book that one of my bestfriends will be lending me.

These simple things and the people that matter is enough reason for me to breathe and praise God. After all it's the season of love. ^^ Ops, and tell you, I'm excited for next year. there's a lot to happen, i just hope makaya ko. hehe.

posted by juliusmarzan @ 12:04 PM 0 comments

Pacman Victory

Go Philippines. Congrats Manny Pacquiao. haha, close?! No but seriously, I think he deserves it. I'm not a sport fan but I enjoyed watching it. It's really a good fight not til De la hoya seems to become a swaying stick. nyaha. Hindi na siya sumusuntok lalo sa last few rounds. or kahit ata sa round 1 parang anlakas at mas bibo na si Pacman. After De la hoya quit, pinakita si Pacquiao parang nag jogging lang samantalang yung kalaban black eye galore. awts. hehe.

I really felt proud as a Filipino. Yeah seriously. I mean look who his fighting at, just the title speaks for itself. I mean what's up with the government - I feel like sports and the arts should get it's fair share of support. Kasi di ba we have Philippine All Stars conquering the world through hip hop break dancing, then we have a lot of great filipino singers in and out of the country that's also winning contests here and there, our athletes that has it but the support from the government, ayun wala lang i just feel for them. hehe. So people, get it? we excel in sports and arts, we just lack something that other countries has. nationalism? effin politicians and leaders of what the hecks? hehe. ewan. haha. basta galing ni Pacman wag lang siyang magpo politika, ina knock out ko siya. haha. as if. pero ayun I hope he stays where he's good at. haha.^^

posted by juliusmarzan @ 4:28 PM 0 comments

pressure

it's 12:08 in my clock. i'm feelin' it.

pressure.

ergh. shout. cry

damn.

posted by juliusmarzan @ 7:24 PM 0 comments

need help. (sinong marunong sumayaw?)

nyaha. so desperado na talaga kami. ergh. who knows someone who can teach us for our presentation sa christmas party namin? haha. uhmm yung inspiration eto

follow the link - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f86qKQJg3Z8&feature=related

- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GjzAJgmJeS0

help!!! kahiya no? haha. everyday 6pm onwards practice dito lang sa Q.C.. tara dali choreograph. wala samin marunong. ergh. replies are deeply appreciated. haha. thanks. ^^

or any tips? pukanamanosh. grrr. haha. anjologs. help help. 0_o

pinost ko rin sa videos section ng multiply. thanks.

posted by juliusmarzan @ 2:28 PM 0 comments

don't read

i warned you

2am

dry

eff

take me

universe

float

addict

lights

up

away

freak

misses

you

where?

uh oh

feels good

taste nah.

damn damn di damn

damn damn di damn damn

disturbia.

laugh.

yeah i told you

not too

imagination

artist

eff off

too much

nicotine. what?

alcohol. not this time.

lucky

just didn't

did i just type licky

or

lucky.

non sense

boo.

this

is how

my mind

works.

creep.

wait

over

doomed

no.

yeah.

hit

beach

cold

blue

black

white

me

just

here

it

ends

oh gosh

goin goin

where again?

chills

boo

what?

enough

posted by juliusmarzan @ 9:18 PM 0 comments

ugly inside out

unwell. unhealthy. unfit. i feel ugly.

posted by juliusmarzan @ 3:34 PM 0 comments

my effin gee.

first. why? just that. you say something one day the next day i'm nothing. try to explain. it hurts most when you left it hangin'.

next. what's up with us weirdo? i would love to think i am completely over. yet you keep turning the tide on. haha. you're my favorite effin gee man. haha. let's get this straight one day ayt?!

last. i'm tired. how would i end this up. i'm in the middle of full shitnitz. the drama doesn't help. i'm no emo. just weird. accept or ignore. one day i'll climb up that mountain and shout this all out. by then there's no turning back. who's with me?

posted by juliusmarzan @ 6:35 AM 0 comments

be the day

i remember my 21st birthday.
work at office, ice cream treat with an officemate (mini stop's ice cream cone. thoughtful) and a bottle of RH at house after work with nothing but my room and me. happy eh?
then an invite for a night food trip treat care of abby. they made me smile. sweet though. they knew i'm on my worse. i don't want them see it again.
that's it. no celebs. just good bad times.
well it's me. now.

on my 22nd i want to be with the people that made me feel at least a person. visible and true. i don't want to try hard. it keep things worse.

i just had a simple wish. happiness. cliche'? but honestly.
i miss myself. help me find him again.
i feel like i don't belong in this world i'm into right now. alien.
my best runs out of reasons.

happy birthday to me on sunday.
as a song goes
"giving faith a fighting chance."

at least hit me a smile when this gets you. promise it makes me feel better. :)

posted by juliusmarzan @ 5:17 AM 0 comments

- - -

b l a n k

+_______________________+

care to fill me in ?

posted by juliusmarzan @ 4:35 PM 0 comments

Desiderata

Desiderata

by Max Ehrmann

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass.

Take kindly to the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.

Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

*"Desiderata" (Latin for "desired things", plural of desideratum) is an inspirational prose poem about attaining happiness in life. It was first copyrighted in 1927 by Max Ehrmann.
I read this a while ago and thought of reposting it. It makes sense - lots of.

posted by juliusmarzan @ 8:26 AM 0 comments

awesome

it was a fun night yesterday. soover. although the day started with a bad weather plus the fact that there's work waiting for me in the office which then i managed to survive - both, i closed my afternoon thinking it will just be another ordinary day. not until i'm on my way to a friend's debut i met my best bud Karen at gateway terminal. haha. and just halfway the line we saw another friend Abby. yes it was an unexpected instant kada reunion. haha. i wanted to bond pa sana with them but still has an event to attend to. i'm really glad i had the chance to spend even just little time with them. sana pumunta sila sa next event(ya know what it is ayt?!). haha. ^^. iba talaga if you're with the people you love. hehe. my night ended also good. marami ako nakitang YFC sa debut ni LA. hehe parang mini metrocon. joke. haha. and siyempre ang super namiss kong ex-partner na si Girlie. haha. also had the night spent with Ez and Sam and some of LA's guests. hehe. sayang wala kaming dalang cam nila girlie haha. para todo pic din. ayun. kamiss YFC. soover. daming nangyari. feeling ko tuloy monday ngayon. hehe. ^^

and that was it. holloween na. wawiwaw. ^^ bilis.

past time.

posted by juliusmarzan @ 8:56 AM 0 comments

Is He Wearing It?!

posted by juliusmarzan @ 9:10 AM 0 comments

What You Want?

"WHO AM I?"

" WHAT DO I WANT?"

Got inspired by an episode of One Tree Hill about wanting and dreaming for something. I'm not really watching the series regularly (I didn't even know their names) but I kind of getting what the characters were trying to convey. The dramas of the people on their early twenties age- career, relationships, single parenthood, changes and whatever issues that came up.While I am listening to each and every characters' answer I myself thought of answering it but find it actually difficult.

Who am I? still blank.

What do I want? Well the last time I actually wrote down what I want (not just material wise) was in my senior year high school, it's actually an activity in our homeroom-thingie in which we have to like plot a timeline of our ages up to 30 (if i remember it right) and beside the age was to write down what you want to have or achieve on that particular bracket. Well most of them came true but when I hit 21 some things are a little bit impossible and some that are actually not listed which i thought were impossible at the time came true.There are a lot of changes. Although i'm still hanging or should i say holding on the possibilities. we don't know what fate has tolled on us. i believe it's a matter of faith and positivity. yes it's hard to go along with the waves of adversities coming from everywhere but we're all going to grave in the end so why not live life to what you want while you're alive. not unless you're a vampire and lives forever and wants to exist in eternal damnation as edward describes it in the book new moon. haha.

Now that I am hitting 22 in less than a month, I guess I have to do something much more with sense. Want for something much more mature. Even if I don't think I'm mature enough to handle anything mature? haha pointless. But still - I had this dream big thing in me - even if it crosses the line of impossibility I think. What's dreaming for if not dream the farthest -and its all free, oh man?! But remember even songs reminds us - "be careful what you wish for
cause you just might get it all" - cause sometimes before you knew it the things you care about the most is gone while on your way reaching for that ultimate want.

But if you really think hard, even the simplest could be the farthest thing you could want - such as happiness and contentment. simple yet hard to get. or is it just me? bacause I'm not claiming it, not choosing it. My wants are as clear as my thoughts are screaming it loud. Maybe it's true what they say - you don't get everything you want, just what you deserve.

Now ask yourself. Who are you? and What do you want?
your turn ^^.

posted by juliusmarzan @ 8:51 AM 0 comments

Rakrakan serioes on Kublai's

hey guys saw this poster here on site. want to check it out. lapit lang to. sa may katips lang. haha. oi knoller at katips friends jan gusto niyo? tara nuod tayo. ^^. badshot days will soon be over hahaha. text ah. tae andun urbandub! yeba. see yah (sana!!! haha).

tignan niyo na lang sa comments mas malinaw ata poster dun. haha.

posted by juliusmarzan @ 7:45 AM 0 comments