getting shitty
i feel good when it's getting bad. shit. i think it should not be the way i am feeling or say --thinking ayt? today i should be going on a chapterhead's overnight but i don't feel like going for unknown reasons. para na kay Lord di ko pa magawan ng paraan. gusto ko tuloy magretreat. i feel just all right pero alam ko may mali on the way i am acting. weird and unusual. i have so much pressure holding me right now. too much responsibility i can't even handle one at a time. and now i feel like losing it all. i like to go back to the days when my heart was burning to serve and simply live life with Him. and nothing to worry about. Fighting the adversities and struggles til it breaks me but not even felt broken after all. yun na yun.
now i am acting the stupid ways AGAIN. i am not learning. i am becoming desperate. ayoko naman maging bato habang tumatanda yung tipong wala ng maramdaman.
- waiting for the righ time-
no free time<?>
kapag arki talaga iba ang oras. parang iisa lang ang araw at gabi. walang pagkakaiba. hehe. anyways. sobrang busy na ng araw araw ko. wah di ko na alam pano ibabalance yung sa church, personal, family at work. kataranta. ayun, pero ayos lang. marunong pa naman ako magdasal although nagi-guilty ako kasi nabawasan yung prayer time ko at minsan nawawala na. tsk tsk how bad.
ayun i'm here at rob right now, sobrang kakagaling lang sa trabaho, hahaha napagalitan pa, hehe pero ayos lang no, that's part of learning. 
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namiss ko tumambay dito at ang gumawa ng maisusulat. kaasar nasira pa yung PC sa bahay di tuloy ako komportable sa labas. haha. eh may idadraft pa naman akong design sa event sa simbahan. haii life.
ang lakas ng ulan at hangin kanina no? na-late tuloy ako. tumirik pa yung LRT2 bago mag J. Ruiz. haha. ansarap ng feeling. joke. haha.
misses and excitements
its been a week since i last visited this site of mine. haha. all pressured up and excited on my new work. nyah. this is the real archi world. hehe. been praying for this a long time. thank God. totoo pala yung sinasabi nilang umuuwi ka lang sa bahay para matulog. hai. pero i am happy with how everything's going. although i have more responsibilities to shoulder. adding up was the on going preparation for the youth jam next month for the fiesta of the shrine of our laday of aranzazu. i've been task to design the stage for the concert. haii any suggestions or websites on where to find cool design for stages for concerts? the audience and the performers are all youth. wow. big production there. avp will surely take it big time also.
plus tomorrow we'll have our chapter assembly for august. whooh. hope we'll plan it good haha. i do hope God will provide more strength for me to do this tall on time. haha. it is never a wasted time when it is time to serve God, ayt?
wisdom bucket:
"adulthood is responsibility" -grey's anatomy
"what you picture in your mind, your mind will go to work to accomplish. when you change your pictures, you automatically change your performance. whatever you attach consistently to the words 'i am,' you will become" - a text from a friend
