driven

getting shitty

i feel good when it's getting bad. shit. i think it should not be the way i am feeling or say --thinking ayt? today i should be going on a chapterhead's overnight but i don't feel like going for unknown reasons. para na kay Lord di ko pa magawan ng paraan. gusto ko tuloy magretreat. i feel just all right pero alam ko may mali on the way i am acting. weird and unusual. i have so much pressure holding me right now. too much responsibility i can't even handle one at a time. and now i feel like losing it all. i like to go back to the days when my heart was burning to serve and simply live life with Him. and nothing to worry about. Fighting the adversities and struggles til it breaks me but not even felt broken after all. yun na yun.

now i am acting the stupid ways AGAIN. i am not learning. i am becoming desperate. ayoko naman maging bato habang tumatanda yung tipong wala ng maramdaman.

- waiting for the righ time-

posted by juliusmarzan @ 8:40 AM