kinda a feelin' good
am i thinkin' too much? hehe. nah. not now.
i started the day not so good. with my stomach aching at morning and been late for hours at office because of it. i thought id be having a bad day but it turns out pretty well. kinda done my job at office although still tired for days of almost sleepless design works. hehe. but anyways it feels good. you know when you're super tired and stressed but still you have your team to back you up or loosen up a bit by just cracking jokes and smile on simple stories while havin short breaks. feels good still. hehe. a while ago my classmate turned officemate had to bid his goodbye since it is his last day today. our design team (8 of us) go out for some dinner-snack outside before going home. it is fun since i really love hearing stories about archi stuff and the things that i as fresh grad do not yet understand. plus we also reminisce some of our college days moments. bad part is they've come to know when's my birthday coming ang masama walang panlibre haha bahala na... hehe. and they come to know some trivia: i entered college fifteen years old and graduated twenty. and they were like: really? hehe yup. so i was having my first (official...rumaraket din ung college..hehe) job on twenty on a five year-course two-year apprentice profession. mejo nakakaproud pero hindi rin kasi the adjustment was really hard. you have to step up all the time. anyways. back to good kwentuhan moments. yes, our desdep head had his own stories too for us. some kalokohan he did during college. and no we didn't talk about office during that time cause it's much more of a stress. haha. good time is good time and so does with work is work. hehe. may natututunan din pala ako. sabi nga nila the more na nahihirapan much better and well trained wag lang sobra. eh yun naman talaga nature ng architecture = architorture. sus naman. student pa lang kami it's always been the "the college that never sleeps..." haha. the only thing we keep to urselves was the fulfillment when you finish a project or design and pass it on time plus the things that you learn while doing the job which for me was really a lot to say i am 3 months at work, i mean what more on the coming days. hehe. it just comes back to loving what you're doing and being happy with it.
i think i'm talking non sense na, mejo sleepy na. hehe gotta go to bed na maaga pa tomorrow. anhirap talaga ng walang makausap sa bahay. haha. anyways. Godbless people!
girl in my dream
this had been a rare thing for me to remember what i had dreamt last night. since i am not that type of person who strongly believes in night dreams. ya' know. the dream was about me and this girl. she is pretty, nice smile, black hair ... kind of long, not skinny-not fat but kinda big girl but she's in highschool uniform which i find little weird. bottomline: she's cute and i like her. so we had a good conversation about life and how she get into our town. cause i remember at the end of the conversation (which is not so clear in my mind what was it about life that we're talking happily) she have to leave and says that she will be travelling far pa. i remember she said a place somewhere south (cavite, las pinas, paranaque...etc...) not so sure, and she says she study there. to think i am from the east, i mean it's still a 2 to 3 hour drive. i certainly remember and loved that look in her eyes after our conversation that i actually kissed her for a minute or so before she bids her goodbye. i don't know what this means but it's worth sharing i guess. just so i don't go too much thinking. hehe. ya know. kinda letting this thing out. as i said it's a rare thing for me to speak about dreams especially those in my sleep cause i usually remember nothing unless it's of great emotions as this is.
good day
i had fun the whole sunday but also i was a lot sleepy. i mean it was a good day if only i don't feel the side effect of the medicine i had took for my allergy. i started the day feelin' sleepy still because saturday night was the usual movie night. hehe.so i woke up late and remembered i dave to attend the christening of my pamangkin. ninong pa naman ako. hehe. anyways i had gone to church just in time and after the baptism we went to my cousin's house and there chow time begins. there's really a lot of food, and i honestly enjoy eating, especially sa mga handaan, hindi lang halata sa payat ko. haha. the after that we go to tito benny's house for our household (prayer meeting) because there are some changes and turn overs that has happened in the service. aftr that, kainan ulit. hmmm. but the most fun part was of course when i get to see my cousins and friends again after months or so of not talking and no updates. it was a good day. oh how i miss the old times. haha. kung hindi lang talaga ko inaantok buongaraw. haha. anyways i hope there will be more of these good moments. thank you Lord talaga. hehe. 
lots of misses
it's been a month since i last visited the cyberworld. i'm feeling old and workaholic (not because i want to, damn.) i had my last household last sunday. it was fun. i'll miss the whole household in my chapter. i don't know what's exactly happening in the cfc-yfc community but i do pray the issues would be solved and hopefully things will get better. and with our new heads hopefully it's a big rebirth for better generations.
how am i? i'm quite tired. life and work. so i am here at rob and spend time here at a net cafe to just update myself on what's happening with my friends, some relatives and the world. aw i really miss a lot of things. there's really a lot that changed. i don't know if it's just me. shit. i hate when i feel i'm out of myself again. huh. vague.
last week i was kind of wandering why are there so many problems coming up when i was supposed to be enjoying life at my age. guess i was really not born to live the life i want to have. poor and single. how was that? and just when you thought everything's gonna be fine you'll see your mom crying. do i deserve this? i want to see this trials as blessings. but sometimes it was just too hard. i pray but i can't seem to focus much. maybe i'm just disturbed. maybe i just have to put my head on my job. maybe i'll just stop finding and waiting for someone. maybe there is no someone. maybe i'll have to live this life miserably. maybe i just have to work and work. not rest and just handle the responsiblity in my family. maybe...
i'll be 21 next month. nothing. just want to say it. huh. growing up. hehe. i remember in one of the tv series i watched it says adulthood is responsiblity. hmm guess it's right.
