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may 02 2007

I have gone mall hopping today with my cousin. This has been my escape when I have problems and thinks of something I should not be thinking in the first place. This has been our favorite thing when we have time to bond and share some stories. First mall stop– RobEast: we do a lot of checking and canvassing on players and techie stuff, just bought a cd and then the rest was pure window shopping. The next stop Sta.Lucia: same with rob just drop by to see some stuffs and you-know-what … what are you all thinking? haha. I have to tell you, this are all unplanned - plain phonecall, and pooof there you go.

Then we decided we should bond more and eat, gone mad finding place to eat until we agreed to push ourselves to Gateway. Haha. More food, much diff aura, more hot guys and gals like us … hahaha… Of course where else we should be but to the cheapest way to eat – food express. We eat heavy meal until we realize its getting late and I have a meeting to attend to. Feels like no tomorrow we took a cup of ultimate coffee at coffee beanery and chat for a while before I forget we still have to get our hair cut. While on our way back home we had talk for a while – relationships, worries and stuff that matters to us which seems not so what-to-worry-about for some. I have shared what I feel, how I feel and what bothers me this past few days. It’s not that I’m acting drama king again but you know, there’s just things you need to say to release emotions and hopefully let go.

I have read a story on one of Bo Sanchez’s books which is “How To Be Really Really Happy?” in a point in my life where I need answer the most. Such a good timing for a man who just dropped by a bookstore to look for some good books and finds himself opening this little book reading this very story. This is the story of Mr. Lonely drives home. When one day he’s eating in a resto and suddenly he realized he’s surrounded by a romantic scenery and seems like everyone around has their partner and shows love and affection to one another, while he a single man accompanied by his book about accounting and business stuff. Oh how sweet. Haha. He just felt what he didn’t like to feel – loneliness. And so he drives home, so fast he recognized himself just sitting in his bedroom, alone. He just prayed so hard, he cried and just felt God. He don’t want to feel lonely. He really prayed whole-heartedly for it. And just as he thought he wants someone to care for him, to love him, he doesn’t have to find that. Because what he’s seeking for, is there all this time around – GOD. He has just affirmed of how God loves him so much and reminded him each and every time that He is more than enough. God is enough.

A wrong act. A successful escape. A story read in a book. A cup of coffee.
A haircut. All is gone. All is left said. Over and enough.

Closing Cycles
By Paulo Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through.

Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished. Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden?

You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won't take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that.

But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back.

Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away. That is why it is so important (however painful it maybe!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.

Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the ideal moment. Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person. Nothing is irreplaceable. A habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

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